So, thought I should do an update. Since my last post was such a bummer. Oddly enough. I am doing great. I'm sitting at work, getting paid to watch the season premier of Grey's Anatomy. I am really tempted to post what happens in the episode so everyone back home will know what will happen before it actually does. Yeah time zone changes. I am looking forward to my weekend getaway. I am going up the NH with some kids from my Bible study to spend some time in fellowship. Then when I get home on Sunday, I am going to see Wicked with my friend Wei.
I love my friends. I love the fact that I can call people when I'm upset and know that someone will be there to give me a hug and let me cry on their shoulder. I love that I can go for a walk off campus and end up at my friend's apartment and be immediately be given a hug, handed a beer and be laughing in less than 5 minutes.
How did I end up this way? Well, today I got a phone call my ex-boyfriend Nick. Whom I dated for a very long time, and still love. After being told he received a text message from me yesterday he decided to call me. I haven't called him since after Houseboat camp in June and it is his 22nd birthday. This conversation turned bad and he attempted to tear me down, limb from limb. I can't wait to find out why God lets certain people in our lives. When I first met Nick, I thought God put me in my life to teach me that I can actually love people and I can love them back. Then I believed that God put him in my life because he was "the one". Now, I have no idea why God put him in my life at all. Maybe more reflection will come later.
Tonight was a very interesting night for two separate reasons. The first was I had a friend come over and we watched "Conversations with God", which was basically the story of how the author who wrote the books came to write the books. Very interesting. The one thing I loved about the movie was it totally showed these "God moments" which I totally love and believe in. And there was one moment where the author explains that our entire lives are conversations with God. Like how our life should be a constant prayer. Which I always thought would be very boring, and yet when you think about it. It really isn't. I guess it just confirmed my belief that I do actually hear the Voice of God, especially my senior year of high school and freshman year of college. Something I knew that some people accepted and I completely shocked others. Long side note I know. I actually started reading one of the books but never got into it because my boyfriend at the time bought it for me and wanted me to read it more in a controlling way then an experiencing type of way. After watching this movie we started talking about religion and it turned out my friend shared some very personal information.
The second reason for an interesting night was a series of conversations with friends back home about events that took place this weekend. Is it horrible that I really want to cut certain people out of my life? I feel like sometimes my friends don't act their age - or they make horrible choices and I really don't feel close to these people for awhile. I mean I love them to death and they will always be a huge part of my life. But for now, my life is going in one direction and I don't think these people are going in that same direction. I don't know why stuff back home bothers me so much. Maybe a bit more reflection will help. Ask me about that later.
So today, I saw "Across the Universe" the movie. Which was AMAZING! I would encourage everyone to go see it. I bought the soundtrack though - so don't buy that. But it was really good to get off campus and see a GREAT movie. Favorite movie this year (second was Hair Spray). I really wish I could sing. And I believe I should have been born in the 60's or 70's I believe my lifestyle would be more accepted then maybe. Or maybe I would fit in more with those types of kiddies. Anyways. That is all I have to say for now.
I am officially starting a blog. I don't know how successful it will be. Being that when I was younger I would continually start diaries and prayer journals, only to discard them less than a month later. But I'm going to make an attempt. Since I know millions of people want to know what exactly Jenna is doing. Where she is going to be come May, when she graduates. Stuff like that.
Anyways, here are the play by play events for today. I woke up at 11AM, I actually set my alarm for 10AM, but I have a bit of a sinus issue so I thought an hour won't kill anybody. I had class at 12:45PM-2PM. Marketing research, I actually love this class. The professor is very real and exciting. We spent a majoring of the class period talking about lesbians and Subaru's. See - very interesting stuff. After class, I went to my aunt's house to drop some stuff off and regain possession of my old blue chair. Did I mention I now have a car at school. Which makes my life that much more fun and exciting. Planning lots of road trips. I'll keep you all updated. I can back to campus, to go to my 5PM class, but it was canceled due to my professor having the flu. ( I better not get that.) So I took a nap and now am setting at work. I'm a work study student (no taxes) working at a Supervisor (yeah pay raise) at the on-campus pub - the 1917 Tavern. Very fun. Tonight is a business co-fraternity is having an info. session and music. Should be good. Anyways, that is all for me.